29 January 2012

okay.i need someone.
sunday, lazy time around.don't know what to do.actually there's some list wait to be done, but the timing isn't perfect.u know it has been busy 
what do you call notso busy but there's still left must to do something feeling
okay complicated.
btw, i will have an exam in next weeek.it's not a big exam, but it seems i pretend i dont care again or i really don't care?i remembered when i receive the mock test schedule last year.i cried endlessly, regret, and said : how come i didn't pay attention to the school for all this time all oveer again until i fell asleep.well regret  comes later.sounds like i got mental sickness, well maybe yes i do
but for today, i don't caree at all, because i already decide that i'm gonna be a something that doesn't havve any relation with science stuff.but i'm not sure yet.the hardest time to make a decision for your future.
what will i be?art marketing?fashion marketing?life is so close to money, and far away to the funeral lately.and to deep to think in that way.for this time i just give an easy question : do something or no?


someone : why r u always dressed like that?
me : actually i rarely dressed like this.i just dressed like this if i want to meet u or some other peps.i love to let  someone to think like : i am behaving like my dress.sometimes, i do dress like a college student, or agirl who doesn't care with her look , or a nerd, and most of them trapped to this kind of trick.i try to leave different impression to different peps.and  actually it begins when i met a mother, she was taking care her child, and waiting for her driver to pick her up, we had a little chit chat,  i told her that i was taking my s1 in marketing and blabla stuff, she did believe that.and here i am now, i love to tricking peoples.i enjoy it.because most of them always judge from cover.so, when peoples busy with their opinion, i always change the cover to see their reaction or treat or etc.basically yes, i love all the people, i'm not hating the society.i love how their minds work.