absence

i spent my day today in my father's little book.and i found some great statement from i-don't-know-who.it's written like this : in some points, something was born from an absence,
so, i started look at the nearest thing : my sweater.the sweater born because the absence of heat, and makes around us colder than usual, and therefore we need something to keep our body warm. 
second thing, Tupperware?born because the absence of human's ability in carrying their water to anywhere.and so on, i applied the statement to a lot of things in my room, and it was right, because we talked about someone's invention.
but then i change it into feeling
how's lust can born?jealously or greedy? it comes from the absence of what?
change it into something big
how's the universe can br created?i mean before the big bang theory?
from where The God comes?the absence of what?
okay.still in my head right now,  some points of what?i don't get it bro

the most shitty drama ever

okay.i need someone.
sunday, lazy time around.don't know what to do.actually there's some list wait to be done, but the timing isn't perfect.u know it has been busy 
what do you call notso busy but there's still left must to do something feeling
okay complicated.
btw, i will have an exam in next weeek.it's not a big exam, but it seems i pretend i dont care again or i really don't care?i remembered when i receive the mock test schedule last year.i cried endlessly, regret, and said : how come i didn't pay attention to the school for all this time all oveer again until i fell asleep.well regret  comes later.sounds like i got mental sickness, well maybe yes i do
but for today, i don't caree at all, because i already decide that i'm gonna be a something that doesn't havve any relation with science stuff.but i'm not sure yet.the hardest time to make a decision for your future.
what will i be?art marketing?fashion marketing?life is so close to money, and far away to the funeral lately.and to deep to think in that way.for this time i just give an easy question : do something or no?